In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths."
Proverbs 3:5-6
Lately I've been going through a lot. I was having a lot of health problems which eventually sent me home because the doctors weren't able to find the source of the problems. Going home was so hard. I was hoping with all my heart that I could go back out to the mission field and finish out the short time I had left.
After being home for a while and going through more testing, we finally figured it out and I am on the road to recovery. When I figured out how long it would take to recover, I decided that it was time to end my mission. I feel like I knew for a while that I would be going home early, but I was in denial because I wanted more than anything to stay. But I realized that my Heavenly Father had something else in mind for me, and it was time to let His plan fall into my place.
Part of me still wishes my time in the mission field with that beautiful little black name badge wasn't over. However, I feel so much peace now. I feel like the decision I made was right, and that I was finally realigning my will with God's again. And I have no regrets.
I can and am at peace because I know that I put everything I had into my service. I made sure that every night as I went to bed I would be satisfied with what I did that day, no matter how rough the day might have been. I truly worked with all my heart, might mind, and strength. And I am forever thankful for the wonderful journey that it's been.
Things don't always work out as we wish, hope, or dream. But I do know that as long as we trust in the Lord with all our hearts, one day all of our most beautiful dreams will come true. And what a glorious day that will be.
